Homemaking is the Hardest Job in the World!

Ok, so that might be a slight exaggeration, but it feels very true at the moment. How does one go from a failure as a wife/mother, to the wife/mother with others on her mind, God as her main focus, and a work ethic that does not put her to shame? That is the big question of the day.

Today, I find motherhood exhausting and monotonous; being a wife is impossible and infuriating, yet guilt inducing all at once; and worst, I find being a Christian non-existent. How do I turn around a life dedicated to ease and getting through today to a life dedicated to God and the bigger picture?

I can recognize there is a big problem in our home and I am motivated to fix it. However, I find the list of "fixes" to be daunting and depressing. Rather than what to fix, the better question in my home right now is what actually doesn't need fixing? How does one even decide where to start! Much less know how to go about it.

And who is there to help women through this?

Where are the godly women who have been there? Where are the MOPS groups that aren't run by a bunch of young ladies playing at being housewives? Where are the moms that I respect who could give advice? Seems like all of the moms I know these days are either ones with worse problems, a slack-progressive ideal of child rearing, or those disgusting completely stay-at-home moms who's biggest fear is forgetting the sunscreen on their weekly trip to the pool or which Christmas wreath to put on their door. Where are the women who slave away working multiple jobs, trying to deligently and gracefully raise their children, working at some semblance of a healthy relationship with their husbands, all while seeking the heart of God? How is that even possible!

I really hate reading non-fiction, self-help books, but today I turned to amazon for advice in response to the vacuum from my own Christian community. Searching for something useful from some strange author out there made me even more depressed.

I suppose in the end I should be looking to God for encouragement, answers and help with change. Yet, a mom needs someone, a friend by her side, encouraging her through this impossible yet holy job that is wife and motherhood.

Maybe someday I can be that mom to another drowning young mother. In the meantime, God it would be fantastic if you would send someone special my way!