I am the whiniest, most ungrateful person in the whole world! I got the job. I actually spent all day Friday crying over it (yes, crying), because I was so not ready to give up my jobless status. Sigh. Eventually resignation set in and I set off to my first day on Monday generally cheerful. It actually went pretty well. I work with two wonderful people, I work in a Christian atmosphere where I actually feel like I can be myself, I like the work ok, and I have a sweet office complete with a door and pretty cherry furniture. As long as I don't think about the 25 hours I'm putting in at the church, 10 hours of driving time (2 hrs/day x 5 days), the 30 hours I'm putting in at work now, the loads of housework, and the new inability to hang out with friends because I now have no free time, I can not freak out and almost enjoy working again. I am trying not to think about how much more time I will spend on church stuff if I get the worship director job and how in the world I'm going to add that in to everything. Or about the fact that I am now making a whopping $40 more a week than I was doing nothing on unemployment.
See, I'm the whiniest girl in the world. So all in all, it's a bittersweet job announcement. If you only think about the job than I have a great new job where I'm learning a lot and have the ability to make all sorts of good connections for our future. It may even help us move closer. But if you look at my life as a whole, I'm just trusting that God knows what He's doing and trying to take one day at a time. "Overwhelmed!" is the word that has been running through my head all weekend. We meet with the church board on Thursday and I will have more information than. I have to admit, if I don't get the church job, than this new job I have is a hinderance not a help and I will basically be very screwed money and insurance wise. I'm just going to trust that God knows what He's doing.
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