That was a little too fast...

Heard back from the conducting dream job. They were nice enough to tell me that they got my resume and sweetly added that they aren't auditioning anymore candidates at this time. Can't help but think that it's because I didn't get it in early like I wanted to. Can't help but be a little mad at the people who were reviewing my resume and made me wait 10 days. Can't help but wonder if their lack of enthusiasm is because they knew I couldn't do it (they would know, too). Can't help but wonder if I'm just not good enough. Sigh. I know none of those trails will lead me anywhere which leaves me with two things that I know to be true. It wasn't God's will for me, it just wasn't. And, this really sucks...