Yep, I'm Crazy!

Those one or two of you who actually read my blog know how much I hate pregnancy. With every fiber of my being! Remember how I talked about God's funny little brainwashing that causes women to have warm fuzzy feelings about getting another little bundle of joy? It's so true. For some reason I'm pregnant again. That's right, already. My son will be 20 months old when we welcome our next bundle of joy. Oddly enough, I'm really excited. This time around is different. Don't get me wrong, I still hate every moment of pregnancy, but I've learned some things since last time: 1. IT IS WORTH IT! Last time I honestly questioned this often. I can honestly say that I would be pregnant many times just to have my one little boy. Does that make it less hard or more fun? Heck no. But at least I'm not afraid of the light at the end of the tunnel this time around. 2. This time I know what to expect. From the first glance at that little plus sign, I knew exactly what hell awaited me. I fell like this time it was my choice to deal with this instead of just being surprised by the yuckiness handed to me. 3. Distraction. Talk about distracted this time around! A young baby and four jobs leave me with very little time to think about what's going on in my body. I have already done this. This time I don't need to remember every moment of this monumentous occasion. In fact, I'm purposefully trying to not dwell on this in hopes that the time will go faster. I'm trying not to count down the weeks. I'm trying to only dwell on the positive and focus more on life here and now. Enjoy my time with just my son, enjoy the little freedom I still have left, leave the worrying for later. 4. I can do this! The knowledge that I have already accomplished this, that I am actually super woman, is actually very comforting. There are new worries and hardships that come with another child, but pregnancy is the hardest part and I know now I've got this! The good news is that this time around the nausea seems a little better. Not sure if it's just I know how bad it can get so my measuring stick has changed or maybe I've got a little girl growing this time...? Who knows, but I'll take what I can get! Countdown to July, please begin and go fast! Here's hopes and prayers for a better pregnancy this time around!